Wednesday, September 05, 2012


Dear Joseph & Daniel,
I think it is very true that with your second child (or in my case second and third), we parents don't rush things as much as with the first. We are in no rush to get to the next stage. Crawling, walking, all these things we know will come in time. So, we don't rush them, but rather tend to live in the moment a little more. Enjoy it, if you will. With twins, at least for me, there wasn't much enjoying that first year. It was more like surviving a tornado. Don't get me wrong. We loved it; loved the chaos, laughed at our mistakes and the insanity of it all, but it was just that...sweet survival. And I really can't say I would go to back to that. But the irony is that I thought it may never end. The idea of taking a shower by myself, without a screaming baby in a bouncy seat on the other side of the curtain seemed magical and mystical, but the idea that you may grow up and someday go off to school? That was completely foreign to me. But, time, it always passes. And once we had that first year under our belt, you two rascals had no problem rushing into each next stage before I was usually ready. You just keep growing up too fast. You are suddenly little people. Little men. With opinions and loves and humor and compassion and tempers and beutiful little personalities. I am no longer thrown off by peoples shock that you are twins. In fact, I relish it. My two little guys, shared my womb, but from day one were determined to prove you are NOT THE SAME. Nope, not the same. But best friends, none the less. Best friends who left me today, on a bus, with not one single tear between the two of you when happily waving good bye to your momma. Off to a big world of school, friends, playdough, coloring and playgrounds. The house is eerily quiet. I look forward to the many things I can get done. But I am heartbroken that we've crossed another first. Ask any of my lady friends who have older children, who just kissed their son or daughter as they left for their first day of high school; who helped them move into their college dorm. They remember their childs first day of preschool like it was yesterday. I remember holding you in my arms, babies, squishy and tiny and helpless as if it were yesterday. It goes too fast. Period. But I'm so unbelievably proud of both you. Of the challenges you've faced and overcome. You both will do big, big things and I'm so grateful to be a part of it, and most importantly to be your mommy. I'm not sure how it works, up there in Heaven, but if you were a part of it, thanks for choosing me. I'm not worthy nor perfect, but I'm grateful and humbled and head over heels in love with you two michevious boogers. I will love you  more each day until the day I die. Good luck today. And come home quick so I can have a double bear hug.
Love, Mommy
Danny & Joey at their meet and greet at school yesterday:
 The boys waiting for the twins bus. Its pouring down rain. Fitting, I think:

Nolan is so proud of these two:
 The boys with their first day of school cookie cake yesterday after N's first day:

Seriously, when did they grow up???

1 comment:

Mom Mc said...

Wow! they are getting so big way to fast. Tell them to slow down so Gramma and PaPa don't miss anything. Looks like Joey has outgrown his shyness. They are so adorable with their arms around each other and with big brother Nolan.Miss you all soooo much. Hope we can wangle out a trip in Oct. Still working on it.All our love, hugs and kisses. XOXO